Headache from HELL!!!!!

One month ago today, I started to feel what I thought was a sinus cold. So, of course, I treated it as I normally would. OTC meds, sinus sprays. Well, after few days, my boss (Who is also my older sister) mentioned that when I developed my last migraine 4 years ago we also at first thought it was sinuses. So I made a Dr. appt for the following week. BAD MISTAKE!!! In the time it took me to get to my doctor, I was in the throes of a full blown migraine. Here's where it gets ugly. My Dr. gave me a narcotic shot, and some codeine and sent me home. Well, the shot lasted about an hour. And the codeine not long after that. A couple of days after that, I decided to go into the Instacare. Of course, the pain got worse on the weekend! Luckily my doc was also at the Instacare that day. So they gave me another shot, and said to try some new meds. Well, nothing improved, and I was in so much pain by this time that my husband had to take FMLA time off to take care of me and the kids. Next day, Instacare again. The doc there just shook her head, and told me "Well, I can't give you any more narcotics. WHAT????? HELLO!!! She hooked me up to oxygen for a half hour, because "with some headaches, it helps." It didn't. I waited a couple more days. Mind you, I was missing work, spending all day in bed in a dark room unable to get up.
Finally 8 days later, I had had enough. I TOLD my husband he was taking me to the ER. Went to McKay Dee, was shifted to 2 different places, and right as we got in the second room, I passed out. Woke up to them poking needles in me, and a mask of oxygen on my face. Not my favorite.
After 6 hours, a CAT scan, spinal tap, and IV meds, they sent me home with a DIFFERENT combo of meds. And gave me an appt. with a Neurologist 10 days away!!!!!!
Over time, I managed to get better, get out of my bed, and back to life. I still have good days and bad, but I take it a few hours at a time. The easiest things still wear me out, and the pressure headaches won't go away. I have a meeting with a Neurologist tomorrow, so hopefully I will get some answers.

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You can't judge a book.

I have some family members who have struggled with drug abuse and alcoholism, and I admit that I have been very judgemental, and less than Christian in my attitude about that. And I have been very angry toward people who have personally hurt ME because of it. Having had numerous surgeries, and health trials in my life, I developed a very "pious" attitude, because,, "It would be understandable if I were to abuse pain killers, but I don't understand how YOU can."

Recently, however, I have gone thorough one of the hardest trials with a migraine. NOTHING that was prescribed by a Dr. legally, has helped much. And I had one Dr. tell me she wouldn't prescribe anything else for me because she didn't want to give me too many narcotics. And I don';t even have a history of drug abuse. I admit that I have even "defied" my Dr.s orders by talking more than prescribed, or taking it a while before I am supposed to take the next dose. Simply because I just want SOMETHING to take the pain away. I have a new understanding for people who suffer chronic pain. After 2 weeks, I am at the point where I can't put a single thought or a sentence together, I forget things, (More than I normally do) and I am so emotional (Also more than normal!) , just because I want, no NO, NEED, the pain to STOP! I have a job, a household and 2 kids to take care of, and my husband and kids have been taking care of ME for almost 3 weeks.I now know that chronic pain is unbearable, and you just want it to stop. The brain does some really desperate things when it can't function properly with good sleep, and no pain. So this is my personal apology to anyone who I may have thought bad about in the past. I understand. And I am now in your shoes. Please think before you judge someone who seems to have a problem. You NEVER know what has gone on behind the scenes.